When I can’t think of an excuse to talk to you
We talk through my poems
And our memories carry the conversation
Because whenever it’s time for you to go
I want you to stay
Or at least ask me to come along
I stay off my phone when I’m with you now
Looking at the time can be a real drag
Reminding me that this to will end.
It feels like we are the only people though
When we are together
And I’m almost surprised when I see someone else
Guess I’ve become a lot less aware
At least during the pockets in time we spend together
Which almost feels infinite
Almost
Until you depart
Then I’m back
As if I was in trance most of the day
And the dopamine that was flooding my body
Has returned to normal
And everyday is another day
Until I see you again
As if I forgot what you looked like
And was not thinking about our last interaction
The smile I have when I see you is hard to hide
So I look up at the sun to avoid eye contact
And when my head comes down and is level
I’m squinting at you
Like I can’t see you there
But I still feel you
Even without touch
My heart races
So why bother fighting it?
And pretend to not enjoy it
When being with you is like being at the fair
And when you go to bed
You dream about the memories you made
And think about the next time you get to go there.
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